Many people in this stressful world live their lives hiding in their own locked doors by listening to and focusing on the footsteps of their own problems, and that includes believers. Psychologists say that this is the “inner prison” of anxiety and fear. It is a dark place somewhere inside us, where even our own breath feels like an enemy. The worse part is many of them even don’t know they themselves are the victims of their own “inner prison”.
Today’s story from John’s Gospel tells us that ‘the disciples, too, were hiding in the upper room. Imagine, for a moment, the silence in that upper room. They had locked the doors because now fear had become their reality. Outside, the world felt dangerous. The authorities were searching for them frantically, and their leader, Jesus, had been taken. In their minds, it was over. Their time with Christ felt like a summer dream. Everything was over.
Then, something miraculous happens. John tells us the doors were locked, but suddenly, Jesus stood among them. He didn’t wait for them to get their act together. He didn’t wait for them to find enough courage to unlock the door. He didn’t even knock. He simply arrived.
We may not be hiding from Roman soldiers today, but many of us live behind “locked doors” the spaces that we created inside us. We lock ourselves behind the door of Anxiety. We hide behind the door of Uncertainty. We retreat into the secret room of Loneliness, thinking no one understands our pain.
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